Today was the first time I wrote in the journal I was given on my birthday on June 3rd, 2010. I really don't write a lot and usually I don't write things down but today I felt compelled with a need to write things down. I'll share most of what I wrote though and this basically goes out to Blueprint Youth Group or Blueprint Group since we're all growing older lol. We reside in Flushing, Queens haha for any online readers who stumble across this blog or post.
First time that I finally felt the need to write something and keep it somewhere. God is good, he is unbelievably awesome!! I think for me the little things are enough to get my attention. I dislike the word luck with a passion, despise Karma too, and absolutely dread the word sacrifice. Today was pretty awesome and theres really barely any words I can say to describe it. I absolutely love small things though I take my mom for granted sometimes. Thats something that he's been working on with me and its just part of growing up. Today I was totally out of it, looking at certain aspects of my life that still need working on and reflecting. Arguments are an occasional thing, especially when a broken family sees little hope. Worry strikes, future and hope seems distant, and financial troubles make things worse.The ability to perform is therefore held at a higher regard especially since I'm almost 18. But the positive thing is God is still so amazing. Encouragements don't come easily to the Ku family unless something impacting and longer lasting happens (wow.. I was thinking about Juicy Fruit). They are usually short-lived and small but big during times of my own reflections. Though I have trouble starting sometimes, when I'm in it I try giving it my all. Getting sidetracked and not going into the fine details, growing up for me won't be easy, but its amazing to do it with God by my side. I love today because he did small things in a big way for me. Sometimes we really need to learn how to appreciate the small things in life. Not in the mood for worshiping or least of all really doing power point I thank God he pull me through. I really appreciated how David Choi stopped and asked God to come, sometimes we forget that. God gave me a seat plan on the left side of the Mana hall facing the stage. 4 rows, 2 seats in the back. Funny how 2 people came and sat in the placement I had in mind. During worship the lord helped me with David's awesome improv's. He brought me from song to song to blank slide (his improv) to fire fall down. During Shawshank Redemption I just really love how he brings my childhood memories (watching a lot of movies about people caring for others) and how he is softening my heart continuously and shaping it so that it would not turn cold and callous. Anyways be blessed all and praise God!
